You are a risk that I am willing to take

既担心，又害怕

喜欢你，我需要鼓起很大的勇气

接受你，我需要经得起考验

我愿，事事顺心

我俩，感情稳如泰山

January 15, 2019

Why do you pull me close and then ask me for space?

If all it is is 8 letters, why is it so hard to say?

I like you.

14th October 2018

我想我会开始想念你，可是我刚刚才遇见了你

How could you break our promise so easily?

You kept insisting it was for my own good and you have my best interest in mind,

but have you considered how I felt?

"All is fair in love and war"

How is it fair that you can buy gifts for me, yet I can't.

Just because I'm not financially stable like you 😔

You deserve the best

and sadly, I'm not yours to keep. 💔

You're perfectly wrong for me, and that's why it's so hard to leave

I won't deny, I was once attracted to your charms,
You are caring, attentive, protective and a true gentleman.
It's difficult to guard my heart against these rare qualities,
but no matter how hard I try to overlook certain things,
I still don't think we are compatible.

This revelation came to light when we're each supporting our favorite Dota 2 teams.
Sounds really childish, but true, it was that day that I realized,
no matter how much I like your attentiveness and caring personality,
I still cannot handle a guy who is egoistical and vain.
"Confidence is attractive and sexy, but over-confidence is a slow and insidious killer."

I have been told to stop stringing you along
since I already knew that nothing can, nor will happen between us.
I think I've already been quite clear about my feelings over the past months.
Indirect rejections and discreetly pushing you away through texts and gestures,
hoping you would get the meaning behind my actions, but I don't think you did.

"Ignorance is bliss",
and you've played the "Silence means consent" card one too many times.
The approaches I had used may be too subtle for you to notice the meaning,
but it was to minimize the hurt that I will, eventually cause you.
And I'm filled with guilt whenever you treat me as if,
there could be something more between us. 😞

You think it's easy

You think I don't want to run to you

But there are mountains

And there are doors that we can't walk through

I know you're wondering why

Because we're able to be

Just you and me

Within these walls

But when we go outside

You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

No one can rewrite the stars

How can you say you'll be mine

Everything keeps us apart

And I'm just not the one you were meant to find.

You could break my heart in two, but when it heals it beats for you.

Last time, I was able to use "studies" as an excuse to evade questions regarding my relationship; now, I can no longer rely on that excuse.

有没有男朋友? 
为什么没有?
是不是还再等他?

Well, I found the answer to these questions:-

因为还未遇到一个想让我谈恋爱的对象 :]

We Don't Talk Anymore

女人就是犯贱

有个爱你的人偏不要

却爱一个不爱你的人

明明说好了不要再把你当折偶条件

却还是不由自主地在人群中寻找你的身影

In which she needs a wake up call

We were once so close, within reaching distance.
Now we' re like strangers.

Strangers who happen to know each other very well.

Although I should be getting used to the idea that you may end up with someone else,
there is still a glimmer of hope that maybe...

Sigh, I'm still not over you.

Whenever I see pictures of you and a girl, whoever she may be,
I can't help but feel a sting and think of the what ifs.

I need to stop these unhealthy thoughts.

In which she is thinking

It's amusing how often people confide me with their love issues,

and surprisingly, I can actually give potential advises, despite my situation, sadly.

Oh, the irony of the situation. 😌

The thought that my friends are getting into relationships is comforting.

Everyone deserves happiness.

Besides, love can be a really good motivation, in a way.

Say, six years is quite far ahead.

Do you think there is a possibility that maybe, 

just maybe, we can be together again? #wishfulthinking

Honestly, I don't think I'll ever forget you,

no matter how hard I try, not that I did try hard enough,

but I'd like to believe I did, at one point of time.

After all, they did warn that:

"the first time you fall in love, it changes you forever,

and no matter how hard you try, that feeling just never goes away."

Maybe I should not concentrate on ways to forget you,

but instead should remember the way I was when we're together, all the good times.

Hopefully then, I will not give up on love, and who knows, meet someone worthy. 😊

In which she still misses him

Those precious moments;
feelings that kindled when we're together;
and YOU.

how long will I need
in order to completely let go?

There's a million reasons why I should give you up, but the heart wants what it wants

2 years..

seems so unimportant and insignificant to you,

but it means so much to me.

It marked the beginning of something,

how could you forget it?

It all started with a conversation about your admirer..